I’ve been really depressed lately- Summer is over- I’m scared about not having a job and all that that implies.
I will be financially dependent on Chris until I find another job- soon, I hope?
My whole Tucson identity centers on my working at the JCC. Save a few, all of the relationships I’ve developed are JCC-related. What happens when I no longer have that?

And the deployment is over- while I’m thrilled for Chris to be home, I’m anxious. We’ve never fought about money before- I don’t really want to start now. And he’s been communicating with me less and less often. I don’t think I supported him enough on this deployment and I’m scare that now he’s thinking I don’t have what it takes to be a military wife.

Done

I really want to say FUCK YOU to everything in Tucson, and go home.
But I no longer have a home in any of my former homes.

goals

Goals for the next six months:

HEALTH - Lose about 10 pounds and keep it off (tone, tighten)

Eat well- Yucky food only when necessary, Eat out max of once per week

Daily exercise- walk with Mav in AM or evening.

Wii Fit once per day

HABITAT- Redecorate apartment (bedroom)

Found out if we can paint

Pick comforter, decorations

FINANCES- Save money

Cut out superfluous spending (separate acct for fun?)

Pay off Vic’s card (around 225 to go)

Pay down Discover card

Add to savings (2,000 by December)

SPIRIT- New Job or increase satisfaction in current job